It's been such a long time since I last wrote on my blog. A lot of internalizing and soul searching, a lot of musing thoughts with the Father, and a lot of times of tears and pain.
Questioning my purpose, direction, calling, accomplishments - all those things which we tend to think about more seriously when middle age comes round the corner.
Everything is evaluated differently. Time seems to move by faster, and yet it seems we move more slowly. It takes longer to recover from a restless night than when we were younger. The ability to over extend our physical, mental and emotional state comes at a higher price now...the reserves are just not there like they used to be.
You notice things around you differently. You spend more time observing people, nature and contemplating the purpose and significance of your surroundings. An appreciation of the "simple things" takes on more relevance. For me, every fall seems to be more spectacular than the previous year; the friendship of close friends, seems dearer; the hugs from family members seem more satisfying; the time it takes to say "goodnight" to your loved one, more intimate.
The meaning of ordinary tasks just seem to be more wonderful when you realize how little time there is in all the moments of our lifetime.
Middle age, for the most part is another great adventure. Our bodies remind us we are not invincible.... our wisdom gained from past lessons and experiences give us an equity when asked our opinion. We do KNOW some things!! Life has been a great teacher. Some lessons we are still having to learn again.
I'm learning to "let things go"... "choose my battles"... "redeem the day"... don't sweat the "small things"... and to live life with a more grateful heart each day.
When it's all said and done,... our attitude will speak the loudest.... how we have journeyed through life, embraced difficulties and treated others will be our score card.
It's not too late to begin again.